In a lonely night...

You know? I really really miss you. I read your blog and wondered if it had written for me? I was just... wanna pick my phone up and text you right away that, "I miss you", miss you so much.
If you asked me if you were my first love, so the answer would be "No, you were the second".

The first one who I loved was a great boy. He is tall, handsome with glasses on his face, looks like a professor. Yes, that's right. And I talked to him the first time on Facebook in January, 2013. It was a secret love. I never told him about my
special feelings. Untill the time I decided that I had to get over him, we had never meet in real life. And I totally got over him. It just took me for a while. Maybe during that time, I was still too young.

The second one who I loved was you. A great man, tall and looks like a professor with glasses. I know that I never told you that you're handsome, but in my eyes you're the most handsome one to me whatever else. Yes, that's right. It's you, the one who had given me special feelings, the one who had given me special times, special moments, and special broken.
I know that we never had an official relationship, but in my mind... I had thought that once I accepted that I share my things, spend my time on you, we're official, even though we had never say it out. Sometimes I wondered in the blink of the night that would you be waiting to love me? Would you give it try? And it really hurted me when you said that you couldn't continue. Every night, I find it so hard to sleep cause I keep thinking of you.

It's about approximatly 3 years ago, when we knew each other, you had given me that special feelings, then you took it away from me. It hurted me. My heart had broken. But it solved by the time. I totally got over you.

It's about some months ago, when it was your birthday, once again, you had given me that special feelings. We had shared. We had beautiful moments. We had special times. Together, our loves grew up. By the time, it stronger and stronger. By the time, it...had all gone. After the broken, I had tried to find someone else, talked to many new people. But it was hard for me this time, cause all what you had given me, it's now memorise deepper and deepper in my heart, my soul. I miss you.